the struggle

Salam..people of the world..
have you ever wonder what your life would be like if you actually follow your heart's desire instead of trying to play safe ?
recently, that thought has been stuck in my head, i would imagine what my life would possible turn out if i'd just do what my instinct tells me.
but all that being said, what past is past. it won't do you or me any good wouldn't it?
my motto now, is just keep pushing forward like a huge bulldozer, squishing everything negativity that sets to be out of my way.
i'm in my torturous  pupilage period, well 9++ months to be precise, everyday waking up, getting ready for "work" seems like hard labor, because i do not enjoy going to the office, AT ALL..
don't get me wrong, the people(4 including me) are awesome, but the HEAD is not.
haha, what head you ask? am just gonna let you figure the simple puzzle,haha
i'm not learning what i'm supposed to, i'm not inspired as i should be. there's hardly any work coming in, i end up just browsing the net (one good point, the awesome INTERNET thank GOD).
knowledge? the web, friends, staffs, books..practical training by the HEAD, none, zero, nada'
haha, if you expect me to beg for work or knowledge from someone who is just obnoxious in my eyes, you can just shove that thought up your A#&!*..p/s: YOU i don't mean you the reader, i mean the HEAD..hehehe
okay for now,better stop the mumbling of nonsense rampage..:P

fresh start

Salam peeps..
It has been years, i mean seriously years of not blogging my mind..:)
I lost my passion to write i guess, so many things have been going on that i just got bored of writing.
However so, now that i have graduated, yeah which was long overdue, yet still thankful i survived law school. i guess i should start writing again. A way for me to brush up my writing skills as well as improving my worn out English skills..hehe
oraitdythen, haha, better stop for now, i got work to do in the office.chiou for now..

kaki gatai

salam semua..:D
ni nak habaq mai kat hangpa..
kaki cek gatai, bukan gatai apa la..
kaki cek gatai nak berjalan sebenaqnya.
hari2 minggu lagu nih, cek rimaeh la nak dok terperuq kat ghumah..
jadi, cek nak pi la jalan2 cari pasai sat kt luaq.
cek nak pi sorg2 ja, yela, cek nak mereleasekan tensi, hat org dok kata kan..
hehe, lagipun, cek yg nak berjalan, buatpa cek nak susahkan org lain, betui dak?
nak habaq mai tu ja, saja cek nak habaq, kot2 ada sapa2 rasa jeles
sebab hangpa ada yg kena pi keja hari sabtu nih kan?
jgn marah2 cek na, nanti hangpa cepat tua, cek taknak bertanggungjawab..:D
cek dok pikiq nak pi hat jaoh ka, hat dekat ka..
dok pi jaoh2 kang, cek penat, lmbat balik..:P
pi hat dekat, tak da benda menarik plak sat g, cek balik cepat sangat pulak..
haih, rasa mcm masalah besaq pulak nak berjalan..keke
takpa2, kita pikiq masa nak tunggu bas sat g..:D
okes, tu jaa nak merepek kt hangpa..
(aku asal Perak, tapi tetibe nak cakap loghat Kedah)
jangan marah naaaa..:D

Chorella..

salam..
yo..yo..cek ade barang baek nk cite nih..sure berbaloi nak duduk diam bace entri ni la bro, sis,..heheh
sebenaqnye, cek nak cite pasai satu produk drp COSWAY.name dia CHORELLA.
aaa, ape2 nih? CHORELLA, dah bunyik mcm CLOROX je.haish, nih bukan CLOROX ye anda sume.
produk ni sejenis supplement yg sesuai baik yang tua atau muda.
korg kalau tau boleh check out dis website, official website for cosway..
http://www.cosway.com.my/product/health/yaeyama%20chlorella.htm
for me, its worth spending laa, lagipun affordable la, its about rm30++(tak ingat), ade 150 tablets..
byk tu, mkn 5-10 bijik sehari.
cek dh mkn dekat sebulan lebih dah.hurm, best2, mcm entri2 yg sebelum, cek slalu bgtau pasai masalah kulit muke cek kan..
haa, sejak ambik supplement nih, Alhamdulillah,masalah kulit dha semakin berkurangan,
tapi, bile datang bulan tu, tak dapat nak elakla kan timbul sejerwat dua kt muka kan..:D,
tu standard laa beb..
CHORELLA nih, mcm adik beradik kdp spirulina la kirenye.rich with chlorophyl, ala yg ade dlm tumbuhan2 hijau nun..:D
sesuai untuk org tua sebab leh bg tenaga, and also kurangkan sakit2 otot, tulang bg org2 yg berusia, sebab bone density kan berkurangan bile usia meningkat..dis product seems to help with that problem.
bg yg mude2 remaja mcm I nih, Chorella ade bhn2 nucleic yg dpt repair cells and rejuvenate skin cells, dapat memudakan balik sel2 yg dah menua..hehe..paham2 je laa, it revives ageing cells bacak to youth..
its rich with antioxidants properties thats y its good for yaa ladies to keep that vibrant and youthful look.
since die ade all that antioxidants properties, its means it can detox ur system, leaving u with blemish free skin..
tapi, ape2 produk pun ade la side effects die ble kite overdose kan..so, cek ambik berpada2, 3 bijik je sehari.asalkan nutrient die ada dlm bdn kite, ..
InsyaAllah, kalu die careful, effect die pun elok la, jngan pelahap sgt pasai nak cantik, sihat..
sume perkare pun kne sederhana ye dak..br la hasilnye berkat dan memberansangkan..::D
peace yooo!!!!

emosi kacau..jiwa kacau..

aku tetiba rasa nak luahkan something.Sebenarnya, aku benci sangat nak balik Melaka, walaupun hakikatnye aku kne jugak balik, sebab ade kelas,tutorial bagai.tapi semua tetap jugak tak dapat nak hilangkan rasa rimas, benci aku kat Melaka nih.Yela, dah dekat 5 tahun aku kat sini.Last sem aku mati2 ingat this sem, semester last aku, tup2 sebabkan 1 subjek yg sangat lahanat, yg lebih lahanat, lecturer la, aku tak lepas.Bukan aku sorg je, lebih 30 students yg tak lepas paper ni.
Gile frust okayh, rasa mcm dah tak de makne dah hidup ni seketika.aku hilang semangat, hilang punca, aku rase mcm nak bunuh lecturer tue pun ade, and still jugak ade perasaan tu....hehe..
daripada tinggal lagi 4 bulan, terus baki pengajian aku extend kepada 1 thun.korg bygkan lah betapa stress nyer aku, nk kne face reality yg aku kne hadap melaka nih lagi setahun..cam cibai!
hehe, sori2 kalau tetiba mulut aku jadi terlebih celupar jap.tapi ni la perasaan aku.
walaupun dh dekat 2 bulan start sem br, aku rase aku br nk terima hakikat step by step..
but just when im startng to get comfortable, things has to go wrong.ade la some mishap somewhere yg aku rasa tak perlu kot nk disclose kat sini.biarla aku pendam sendiri selagi aku boleh.
tapi gara2 mishap ni, aku fed up nk duduk melaka, tiap kali nak berangkat pulang ke melaka dari hometown, aku rase mcm dijatuhkan hukuman mati.mase pulak berjalan perlahan sangat bile kt melaka, aku pun tak tahu, maybe perasaan aku je kot.
tapi aku cuba sedaye upaya untuk sabar, dan aku sentiasa berdoa supaya ALLAH berikan aku kesabaran yg amat tinggi, sebab aku tak nak melenting tak tentu pasal, yg in the end akan yg mendatangkan masalah pada aku nanti.
bile aku rase down, rase nk mengamuk, solat je yg dapat menenangkan aku.Alhamdulillah, aku masih lagi berupaya untuk terus kukuh dengan agama.belum lagi terpesong, dan aku berdoa supaya ALLAH sentiasa lindungi aku daripada sebarang gangguan dan jugak hasutan syaitan ataupun manusia.
aku selalu igtkan diri aku, jgn kejar bnd yg sementara, sdgkan yg hakiki tu lg penting.
riak tak mendatang ape2 faedah, malah lagi dibenci ALLAH.
biar kite kejar amal2 ibadah sebab semua tue dpt menjamin keselamatan kite di akhirat nanti, yg dpt menjauhkan kite dr azab2 neraka jahanam.
aku tak dela pandai sgt bab2 agama ni, tapi aku cuba nak menambah ilmu.aku tak pernah cakap atau cuba nak project diri aku ni sempurna,sebab aku manusia biasa yg sentiasa tak dpt lari dr melakukan kesilapan. sebab tu aku sentiasa igtkan diri aku balik kepada yg MAHA ESA.
jadi selama baki 3 bulan aku kt sni, sebelum aku leave of absence, aku cuba bersabar, set my priority straight.oh, aku nak apply LOA sebab next semester aku dah complete semua elective subjects, so aku tak payah la ambik subject next sem.
cuti la 3 bulan, pastu new sem, aku ambik 1 subject je, yg kne repeat tu, ulang alik je la hometown, then final sem, two subjects, part 2 of land law and professional practice.
aku kne go all out, sebab aku nak grad!!! hehe, tak larat woii nk extend lgi, leh mati otak hoh..:D
sementare nak sampai waktu itu, aku kne sabar, sabar dan sabar. buat hal sendiri, tak perlu campur hal org lain yg tak mendatangkan faedah untuk aku.
InsyaALLAH, tawakal..:D

back in melaka..

salam,..salam 1 malaysia..:D
hah! malam semalam jam 11 pm, org smpai melaka naik bas AB ekspress dr ipoh..
sebab last week balik cuti awal muharram kan..:D
pergh, jalan jammed gile, bertolak dr ipoh jam 3pm, smpai melaka jam 10pm gitu..
kebas bontot, ngn kaki duduk lm dlm bas woiii..
nasib baek ade mmber Anis, tolong fetch kat stesen bas..malam2 bute cm 2 mn nk cari teksi ke bas nk balik rumah kan...
hehe, owh, harini ade midterm test..tapi2 kan...belum study pun..
ok, wish me luck..:D

wordless wednesday or wordfull?

hye there peeps..
so today i got few things to say..
mostly about how i am as a person..what im like..what i don't like and hate..
just thought of posting entry to clear things about myself..(i dnt know to who im explaining, but hell, i dont care)

what i like/love:
~food,LOVE plain water(cant live without it)
~music~kpop,r&b,english etc..
~writing
~action movies(the bloodier the better)
~shopping
~shoes

what i hate:
~lagu jiwang karat melayu(i hate listening to it, and I HATE people singing to it)
~hate listening to girls talking nonstop abt boys,(gives me headache)
~being at place crowded with ppl
~being in long line
~waiting
~being stared at for no obvious reason
~anything in pink(i like warm,smooth pink, as long as its not on me)

sooooo, thats about more or less of what i like and hate..
there are other things that i didnt put up..but these are some of my top like n hate lists...
whenever things i hate happen, i would either go balistic and shout at those concerned or i just put on my headphone and turn up the volume so i wont hear anything..
right now, im really trying to control my anger cz i dont want to pick fights with anyone..
im just trying to live my life peacefully without any crap disturbing me..
just wanna complete my studies in a proper manner..
"sabar2, lagi 3 bulan je lg"
call me insensitive whatever, im tired of always caring about ppl's feeling, when nobody even care how i felt..
tired about being stabbed at the back, fooled around, taking advantaged of..im done..
im not perfect, and i never said i was perfect in any way..but im human too, i have feelings too..
you dont like being told this? then be it, you can't always have what you want in life you see...