its been weeks, months, since i had a clear mind, to be able to really think and open up my eyes to what's real and what's not..
just enough time to make changes in my life,but sometimes, that kind changes doesn't really matter to one's view.
its never good to keep things bottled up inside of yaa, and because of trying to make people arround you happy, you end up not..
what i can say, what saved me from falling a lot deeper in this "mesmerizing and deceptive" life, is ALLAH.
even if when there's nobody else beside me, when the whole world is against me, ALLAH is always and will forever be with me..
the strength i got was to accept everything that hurts, and turn into anamoly of dusts in the air..
even if you're alone, with no human called friends, just remember you have one that suffice for eternity.
it took me a while to realise it, because i was so busy thinking about things that don't matter, i forget..
i was lost in pain, betrayal, and thought that its over..on my bended knees i call out for HIM
answers were right in front of me all along, i just didn't see it coming..
its as clear as day now..
what i see as truth..what you see as truth..what they see,what i believe, what you believe..as plural as it can get ..nobody knows..
there's no point of going back to how it was..
the privileges lies on the hands that holds it..me, us, you, HIM..
from now on, every steps,every breathe, every thoughts..BISMILLAH..
