it has a week since we started fasting..
felt good, refreshed,LIGHTER..*wink*
i remember the first time i celebrated ramadhan in Melaka, away from home, away from family
damn, it was hard. i felt alone, no mama, cooking for me,waking me up for sahur,breaking fast together.
i guess it gave me a great deal of appreciation. finally realized how important those moments were.
just to be near with your loved ones, just sometimes soo precious, that its just not something you should take for granted.BIG TIME!
well, 4 years and 4 ramadhan later, i've grown accustomed with *puasa di perantauan* thingy..
only by luck, i could spend ramadhan at least a week at home, thats if MMU *cracked*lecturers let us go off early. finish all those crazy syllabus on time, giveus the break that we desperately need.
there was one time, or two..couldn't remember much these day*studying law apparently decreasing my memory capacity*
i only managed to fast at home 2 days before the eid..man, was i disappointed, heheh
but i believe there's always light is every misery..even for a short time, at least i got a family to spent it with, there are those out there who are unfortunate than me, or any of us.
now~august 2010~almost 4th or 5th ramadhan*i hate numbers period, n bad memory,diam sudeyh*
this year's the best, because im spending it with my dearest frens!
lately, i know, i realized , i've been constantly talking about friendship and stuff. for those who wanna spew after reading them, you can always click on the X up there, no biggie..
hehe, what can i say, i have no other relationships, that i would rather cherish, and brag about other than my lasting friendship and my family laa!. yes, it last! unlike some, im pretty sure what my friends n i have are real, and true. ours are based on trust, love, and support.
its kinda funny, and a bit despicable to see there are something called phony friendship.
believe me, it exist! i've seen it everyday in my life. Boy, have i learnt a lot in MMU...:)
well, as i just said, phony, as in, they're not really friends, but close enough? you see, they talk behind each other's back, all the time, criticizing each other, mocking, hating, whole lot of exaggeration.
its hard to define whether they're really friends or just pretending? why? because in front of the friend, they're soo close like GLUE, but the moment they're out the sight, all those bitchiness comes popping out. i just don't get it. if you hate them soo much, why stay friends, and put yourself through that pretentious being. its like, they're friends just to outdo each other in every sense of luxury, popularity, personality.
when all is built on a false foundation, then what is left for you to call truth? that spark that you can be proud of? it would be for nothing..
and you're spending your time, hating others, jealousy over other's happiness, success.
isn't much easier to accept that not everything is based on how rich you are, how popular you are in school? but simply because people wanna be your friend, because of who you really are~a nice, good friend~nothing else matters..*that's what i've learnt from my friends,they love me for who i am, and thats why i love them*
Soo, why don't you take a seat back, and immerse yourself in your thoughts, look back at what you've built in life..maybe it will make you a better person at the end of the day..=)
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