wordless wednesday or wordfull?

hye there peeps..
so today i got few things to say..
mostly about how i am as a person..what im like..what i don't like and hate..
just thought of posting entry to clear things about myself..(i dnt know to who im explaining, but hell, i dont care)

what i like/love:
~food,LOVE plain water(cant live without it)
~music~kpop,r&b,english etc..
~writing
~action movies(the bloodier the better)
~shopping
~shoes

what i hate:
~lagu jiwang karat melayu(i hate listening to it, and I HATE people singing to it)
~hate listening to girls talking nonstop abt boys,(gives me headache)
~being at place crowded with ppl
~being in long line
~waiting
~being stared at for no obvious reason
~anything in pink(i like warm,smooth pink, as long as its not on me)

sooooo, thats about more or less of what i like and hate..
there are other things that i didnt put up..but these are some of my top like n hate lists...
whenever things i hate happen, i would either go balistic and shout at those concerned or i just put on my headphone and turn up the volume so i wont hear anything..
right now, im really trying to control my anger cz i dont want to pick fights with anyone..
im just trying to live my life peacefully without any crap disturbing me..
just wanna complete my studies in a proper manner..
"sabar2, lagi 3 bulan je lg"
call me insensitive whatever, im tired of always caring about ppl's feeling, when nobody even care how i felt..
tired about being stabbed at the back, fooled around, taking advantaged of..im done..
im not perfect, and i never said i was perfect in any way..but im human too, i have feelings too..
you dont like being told this? then be it, you can't always have what you want in life you see...

Maher Zain - Thank You Allah

I'M ALIVEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

salam sume...hye peeps..salam satu Malaysia as our Lecturer used to greet us at the start of the class..
caption? I'M ALIVE? hehe, saje je..alive as in dh jumpe punca aliran internet..ceihhhh, "punca aliran" KONON..gedik!
eh, tak2, saye bukan budak gedik, jauh sekali dari diri saye SEBENAR..kuang2..
takde2, entri kali ni bukan nk cite kegedikan sape2..lagipun, saye tak tau pun definisi GEDIK tue..kehkeh..
sori2, otak tengah agak bengong sikit hari nih..al-maklumlah, hari ISNIN la katekan, ape die omputih selalu cakap..MONDAY BLUES gitu..haaaa, bukan otak blue okay, blues tu MOOD..mood cuti hari minggu still mengikat diri lg..ecehhhh..
hari ni dh merngkap hari ke-3 masuk hostel..so far, so good..xde problem..hidup lagi..
ni bukan hostel zaman sekolah2..ade ragging bagai..org nk ragging aku, aku ragging dorg lg teruk..
gangster habis bunyik..:D
sebenarnyer, tengah menghitung hari nk balik kampung, nk balik cuti awal muharram minggu depan.
tapi, yg tak syoknyer, hari isnin tu jugak kne balik melaka jugak sebab esoknyer ade exam midterm..haa, berani mati tak org?? argh, tak kire, keinginan mengatasi segalanyer..
wa lindu wa punye amma, appa, wa punye lumah woooo..ehe...
owh2, sempena awal muharram nnt, rajin2 la kite puasa ye..jom2, kite tambah pahale nak??
ni tuk org MUSLIM je laa, jgn la yg NON MUSLIM g puasa gak, xpsl2 org kne dakwa incite korg pulak..(perasan le mcm ramai sgt yg baca blog kau!)
haaa, bile tu nk puasa??
ni nk bagitau ni, alang2 kite share2 care nk tmbah pahale ye dak?
elok kite puasa 10 muharram, tapi lg afdal kite puasa sehari sebelum dan sehari selepas 10 muharram, yakni, 9,10,11 muharram..
nak tau nikmat puasa 10 muharram nih?
ni org amik dari http://muslim.or.id/fiqh-dan-muamalah/keutamaan-puasa-di-bulan-muharram.html

- Puasa yang paling utama dilakukan pada bulan Muharram adalah puasa ‘Aasyuura’ (puasa pada tanggal 10 Muharram), karena Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam melakukannya dan memerintahkan para sahabat radhiyallahu ‘anhum untuk melakukannya[3], dan ketika Nabi shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam ditanya tentang keutamaannya beliau bersabda,
يُكَفِّرُ السَّنَةَ الْمَاضِيَةَ

“Puasa ini menggugurkan (dosa-dosa) di tahun yang lalu“[4].

- Lebih utama lagi jika puasa tanggal 10 Muharram digandengankan dengan puasa tanggal 9 Muharram, dalam rangka menyelisihi orang-orang Yahudi dan Nashrani, karena Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam ketika disampaikan kepada beliau bahwa tanggal 10 Muharram adalah hari yang diagungkan orang-orang Yahudi dan Nashrani, maka beliau bersabda,
فَإِذَا كَانَ الْعَامُ الْمُقْبِلُ – إِنْ شَاءَ اللَّهُ – صُمْنَا الْيَوْمَ التَّاسِعَ

“Kalau aku masih hidup tahun depan, maka sungguh aku akan berpuasa pada tanggal 9 Muharram (bersama 10 Muharram).” [5]

haaa, tgk tue, kalau kite puasa pd bulan muharram, ibarat menggugurkan puasa kite tahun2 lepas..nikmat sangat tu..jadi marila kite same2 amik peluang nih, untuk menyucikan diri kite sedekit demi sedikit dengan peluang yg Allah beri pada kite..:D

MOM's THE WORD

hey..hey...here i am again..hope ur not sick of me..YET..hehe
Right,i want to talk about moms, mommies, mothers..dads,daddies,
we all know that moms have lotsa worries for their children kan???
i mean, they tend to worry about small things when it comes to their children.
of course my mom is not an exception.and sometimes, i just breaks my heart..
for instance, just now, my mom called me, to say hye and also to check up on me..
you see, im currently in the midst of completing my final year studies doing law.
and just recently, i had to move out of my 3 bedrooms rented apartment that i shared with 2 of my friends for almost 5 years.
it was supposed to be cleared out since last month,and i should've been in the hostel by now, but im just not that ready..hehe, its kinda hard to leave the house LOL..so many memories,
OK, im feeling NOSTALGIC right about NOW..and i think im gonna CRY..(mengada2 sgt ko NYAH)
anyhow, while both of my friends/housemates, either graduated or backpacker student, they're done clearing out stuffs from the house except me..
well, i've been cleaning, throwing trashes alone, and albeit still having class everyday, i just don;t feel like fully moving out..:P
so, when Syaz when back home for the weekend, i just stayed at the house all by myself, which was FINE for me..don't get wrong, i love having a house full of people..but sometimes being alone means freedom,betol dak???
soooooooooo, whenever im alone, in this 3 bedrooms apartment, my mom n dad would be frantically worried and keep on texting and calling to check on me..
my dad would be nonstop texter,hehe, while my mom would often call me during the night, to keep me "company".
i kept on telling them, that im FINE staying alone, because im comfortable being alone at home, like i can do anything i want, i can clean, make noise, sing out loud without having to care that someone's gonna come banging on my door..
but being worried parent, nothing can ease their mind..so my mom would have sleepless nights thinking about me miles away from home..
it literally breaks my heart, but i just dont know how to explain to them that im completely OKAY, alive and breathing.AND STILL HUMAN..
i hate making them worried.its as if im letting them down in some ways that i dont even understand.
GOSH..pama, tolong jangan risau please...orang sangat2 lah okay kt cni, yes im having a hard time coping with the changes happening, but im PUSHING through..so please jgn risau..
i got HIM watching over me.InsyaALLAH..sume okay..:)

melantak

salam..hehe..
harini kannnn, sy sgt senang hati membelanje rakan2 saye makan stimbot..
makan ramai, best, havoc..erm, takde lah ramai pun, bertiga jer, tapi..tapi..
bertiga pun dah gaya macam 10 org..punya bising ngn pecah perut ktorg kt restaurant..
i think its exact to say, its not the number that matter, but the real company that matter..
biarlah bertiga, berdua ke..tapi org yang kite habiskan hari kite tue, org yg kite hargai, dan juga yg hargai kite..betul dak??
hehe, so..so...tadi lepas makan kenyang2, sampai butang seluar pun nk burst..(ish2, pompuan ape burok lantak nih..)
ktorg g menyoping kedai kasut..hehe, sale beb, sale..rugi kot kalau tak shopping selori dua..
eh2, takde la sampai lori2, melampau la tau, ingat aku ade kilang cop duit kaa macha?
tapi ade la setakat sempat menyambar liquid eyeliner satu dengan sepasang kasut flat hitam..
haaa, eyeliner tu mungkin la agak gatai tgn membeli, tapi yang kasut tu memang worthy investment, sebab kasut formal yg lame dh daif sgt keadaannyer..so, tak kire membaziaq la..
(saje nk legakan hati supaya tak rase diri membazir)
haip..haip..tak baik mengeluh bile dh berbelanje..bak kate pengarang buku motivasi "TAU TAK APA", En. Tuah, kite kne bersyukur sebab kite mampu untuk berbelanje barang2 yg kite perlukan..
kate beliau juga, kite kne tanamkan dlm diri supaya tak mengeluh bile terpakse mengeluarkan duit ketika berbelanje, tak baik, tak bersyukur dgn rezeki yang ALLAH bagi..
jadi mari kite bersyukur sebab kite masih mampu memenuhi keperluan hidup kite, sentiasa beringat pada org2 yg tak bernasib baik mcm kite..(adoi, rs mcm penceramah la pulak)
takpe2, kite share2 je pesanan yg elok untuk kebaikan kite ye dak???(cakap ye, CEPATTT);)
oklah..tu je yg merepek harini..
nnt kalau ade benda menarik lagi, akanku rajinkan diri berkongsi ye..
salam....:D

walking down the memory lane..

i woke up this morning with a feeling of uneasiness..torn between two realities..
its hard to walk out of the house that we've lived in for so many years..
a house that holds gazillion memories, laughters, screams and madness..
friends who are always there for you whenever you need them, who you can share your problems and sorrows with, who always lifts you up when you're down..
its feels as if leaving your whole life walking away..
i never thought i would feel this horrible, eventhough my new home is just few minutes away..
i guess i'll miss the freedom and carefree that i have from this old house..
when im sitting alone in the hall, i could see and re-lived every moments that my housemates and i went through all this years, 5 whole years to be accurate..
it was so real, vivid and clear..that i found myself laughing by myself..thinking about all the funny madness Syaz, SOnia and i used to have..
im gonna miss that a lot..i mean really MISS..
but its time to make new memories from now on..
GOODBYE BLOCK D 3-5, BBP apartment..

awakening

its been weeks, months, since i had a clear mind, to be able to really think and open up my eyes to what's real and what's not..
just enough time to make changes in my life,but sometimes, that kind changes doesn't really matter to one's view.
its never good to keep things bottled up inside of yaa, and because of trying to make people arround you happy, you end up not..
what i can say, what saved me from falling a lot deeper in this "mesmerizing and deceptive" life, is ALLAH.
even if when there's nobody else beside me, when the whole world is against me, ALLAH is always and will forever be with me..
the strength i got was to accept everything that hurts, and turn into anamoly of dusts in the air..
even if you're alone, with no human called friends, just remember you have one that suffice for eternity.
it took me a while to realise it, because i was so busy thinking about things that don't matter, i forget..
i was lost in pain, betrayal, and thought that its over..on my bended knees i call out for HIM
answers were right in front of me all along, i just didn't see it coming..
its as clear as day now..
what i see as truth..what you see as truth..what they see,what i believe, what you believe..as plural as it can get ..nobody knows..
there's no point of going back to how it was..
the privileges lies on the hands that holds it..me, us, you, HIM..
from now on, every steps,every breathe, every thoughts..BISMILLAH..